i was actually writing abt my trip to gambling ship today... =S the power to my laptop went off a few times and i got fed up of writing...hence let this be it...
i went to gambling ship to see see look look with cindy...
Monday, May 01, 2006
ladies and gentlemen...i am back at the scene again.
days have gone by very fast. its nearing may and its almost time i do my acceptance into NTU mechanical engineering year 2. i have also nearly worked for a mth since my graduation from Ngee Ann Polytechnic. i am now working as a waiter in one of the many Jack's place outlet. this is my first venture into the F&B, the really upfront F&B. there are tons of things to learn and lots of work to be done.
its not excatly a dream job. there are super long hours and my time are basically the inverse of normal mainstream jobs. when the mainstream 9-5'er rest, i begin my work. and i guess that somehow puts a strain on my current relationship with joyce. sorry~. all i can do is to try my best to find time with her.
despite the recent busy schedule, life lessons still proceeds on. one of the modules that i took up recently was about trust.
i have always thot that with each person that i classify, different amounts of trust will be given. give a dash of trust to those new strangers that i have been introduced to. give more dashes of trust to mummy and daddy, but still have to hold back some, on certain issues. and thats how i thot trust shld be distributed. that sort of unwaivering and firm trust to family and close frens, while skeptical and growing trust to frens who grows with you.
i guess its becos of my upbringing that leaves me to be so trusting. mummy used to befriend the spikey needle during those years. she would SERIOUSLY poke poke your mouth if she ever finds out that you lie. okok, dun have to go report the authories. the threat alone was enough. not to mention the witness of an actual punishment. that punishment happened to my brother. FYI, he doesnt have problems with leakage when he drink.
quite a few frens have come up to me telling me that i am jus too trusting, and i have on several accounts seen how dangerously trusting that i can be. i have also another group of ppl telling me how skeptical and NOT trusting i can be. hahaha...well you can satisfy the crowd. so i rather keep to being trusting to every other frens and family i have.
well so wats the problem then? usually when we use the word trust, it has a common understanding that it is quite mutual. hence the most saddening and disappointing part is the revelation that its not mutual at all. have you tried trusting someone jus to have him/her tell you that "yes, i dun trust you.". when you are as trusting as me, it jus turns into a common event that these sorts of person turns up quite often.
trust requires the mutual affirmation of both parties yet it can still be as fragile as glass. without trust can countries truly be at peace with one another with one word? without trust can religious people truly be faithful to their gods with one heart? without trust can friends cover each another's back with one thought? without trust can couples live long and be happy with one another? without trust can families trust one another and stay united against external aggression with one heartbeat?
seemingly fragile as trust can be, it is as important as it is fragile. and as difficult as it is to take the first step, it is as easy to continue to trust. that is to continue to talk to one another and take away the selfish self that exists between the two parties.
days have gone by very fast. its nearing may and its almost time i do my acceptance into NTU mechanical engineering year 2. i have also nearly worked for a mth since my graduation from Ngee Ann Polytechnic. i am now working as a waiter in one of the many Jack's place outlet. this is my first venture into the F&B, the really upfront F&B. there are tons of things to learn and lots of work to be done.
its not excatly a dream job. there are super long hours and my time are basically the inverse of normal mainstream jobs. when the mainstream 9-5'er rest, i begin my work. and i guess that somehow puts a strain on my current relationship with joyce. sorry~. all i can do is to try my best to find time with her.
despite the recent busy schedule, life lessons still proceeds on. one of the modules that i took up recently was about trust.
i have always thot that with each person that i classify, different amounts of trust will be given. give a dash of trust to those new strangers that i have been introduced to. give more dashes of trust to mummy and daddy, but still have to hold back some, on certain issues. and thats how i thot trust shld be distributed. that sort of unwaivering and firm trust to family and close frens, while skeptical and growing trust to frens who grows with you.
i guess its becos of my upbringing that leaves me to be so trusting. mummy used to befriend the spikey needle during those years. she would SERIOUSLY poke poke your mouth if she ever finds out that you lie. okok, dun have to go report the authories. the threat alone was enough. not to mention the witness of an actual punishment. that punishment happened to my brother. FYI, he doesnt have problems with leakage when he drink.
quite a few frens have come up to me telling me that i am jus too trusting, and i have on several accounts seen how dangerously trusting that i can be. i have also another group of ppl telling me how skeptical and NOT trusting i can be. hahaha...well you can satisfy the crowd. so i rather keep to being trusting to every other frens and family i have.
well so wats the problem then? usually when we use the word trust, it has a common understanding that it is quite mutual. hence the most saddening and disappointing part is the revelation that its not mutual at all. have you tried trusting someone jus to have him/her tell you that "yes, i dun trust you.". when you are as trusting as me, it jus turns into a common event that these sorts of person turns up quite often.
trust requires the mutual affirmation of both parties yet it can still be as fragile as glass. without trust can countries truly be at peace with one another with one word? without trust can religious people truly be faithful to their gods with one heart? without trust can friends cover each another's back with one thought? without trust can couples live long and be happy with one another? without trust can families trust one another and stay united against external aggression with one heartbeat?
seemingly fragile as trust can be, it is as important as it is fragile. and as difficult as it is to take the first step, it is as easy to continue to trust. that is to continue to talk to one another and take away the selfish self that exists between the two parties.
