its been a month since our break-up. wat is a break-up anyhow? avoiding the person that you once held dear? making her less impt than how she once was? or is there no such thing as a break-up?
during this month, there hasnt been a day that pass without reminders of her. in songs, places, words and certain familiar yet distant feelings. still remember her little little habits and dislikes. certain songs that reminds me of her and us, or how we are or used to be.
"可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的" - 李圣杰 最近
out of coincidence i met up with a few frens at a coffeeshop around her house to chill out. as i bade farewell to them and walked home. i past by her usual carpark. i hesitated for a while, before finally deciding to take a look around the carpark and find her car. i wasnt intending to do anything, but maybe jus take a look at the car even if i cant meet up with her. i went through the whole place, but the car wasnt there. guess it was meant not to be.
i continued on my way home, walking down the same path i used to take when i left her place. the sights and sounds seemed to be the same but the feeling has changed. there used to be certain amount of excitement when walking down the path. NO...not excited that i am leavin her place and heading home. rather it was a sense of excitement that overflowed from the date with her. it was always a path where i acted very stupid, where i had to consistently fear that ppl think that i am crazy.
happy memories will be where i can see and hear her again. even her angry face looks rather cute. will be looking out for your face in the crowd and your little getz in the traffic. that i guess will be the only constant in the break-up.
to my 专属天使 i hope the best for you, because i think u deserve it.
