ladies and gentlemen...i am back at the scene again.
days have gone by very fast. its nearing may and its almost time i do my acceptance into NTU mechanical engineering year 2. i have also nearly worked for a mth since my graduation from Ngee Ann Polytechnic. i am now working as a waiter in one of the many Jack's place outlet. this is my first venture into the F&B, the really upfront F&B. there are tons of things to learn and lots of work to be done.
its not excatly a dream job. there are super long hours and my time are basically the inverse of normal mainstream jobs. when the mainstream 9-5'er rest, i begin my work. and i guess that somehow puts a strain on my current relationship with joyce. sorry~. all i can do is to try my best to find time with her.
despite the recent busy schedule, life lessons still proceeds on. one of the modules that i took up recently was about trust.
i have always thot that with each person that i classify, different amounts of trust will be given. give a dash of trust to those new strangers that i have been introduced to. give more dashes of trust to mummy and daddy, but still have to hold back some, on certain issues. and thats how i thot trust shld be distributed. that sort of unwaivering and firm trust to family and close frens, while skeptical and growing trust to frens who grows with you.
i guess its becos of my upbringing that leaves me to be so trusting. mummy used to befriend the spikey needle during those years. she would SERIOUSLY poke poke your mouth if she ever finds out that you lie. okok, dun have to go report the authories. the threat alone was enough. not to mention the witness of an actual punishment. that punishment happened to my brother. FYI, he doesnt have problems with leakage when he drink.
quite a few frens have come up to me telling me that i am jus too trusting, and i have on several accounts seen how dangerously trusting that i can be. i have also another group of ppl telling me how skeptical and NOT trusting i can be. hahaha...well you can satisfy the crowd. so i rather keep to being trusting to every other frens and family i have.
well so wats the problem then? usually when we use the word trust, it has a common understanding that it is quite mutual. hence the most saddening and disappointing part is the revelation that its not mutual at all. have you tried trusting someone jus to have him/her tell you that "yes, i dun trust you.". when you are as trusting as me, it jus turns into a common event that these sorts of person turns up quite often.
trust requires the mutual affirmation of both parties yet it can still be as fragile as glass. without trust can countries truly be at peace with one another with one word? without trust can religious people truly be faithful to their gods with one heart? without trust can friends cover each another's back with one thought? without trust can couples live long and be happy with one another? without trust can families trust one another and stay united against external aggression with one heartbeat?
seemingly fragile as trust can be, it is as important as it is fragile. and as difficult as it is to take the first step, it is as easy to continue to trust. that is to continue to talk to one another and take away the selfish self that exists between the two parties.
Monday, April 03, 2006
its been days after my graduation. although i haven got my cert or been through the actual ceremony yet. i am pleased to announce i now hold a DIP in mechatronics Eng. and i grad with a GPA of 3.9174. yea...for those out there..the max score for a GPA is 4 and of course the best results will be the ones gettin 4.
actually there is little to no point getting such high score. only except to get into favourite uni and favourite courses. hahaha...finally i have enlightened and seen through it. so now the question awaits, am i in uni yet? the answer is still pending. ba~~~ .... so far i have only sent my application to NTU. up till now, no answers. arggh, the wait is killing me. y did i apply to NTU only? erm...cos so far thats the only uni that have left a clear impression that they can let me direct into 2nd year of studies. arrghh...the pains of waiting, dun blame me, i am the maggi mee generation.
even if i get my letter of entry now...i have a whopping 3 months before i enter into uni, as classes start at around august. time to find a job to fill the 3mths.
oh...regarding the medallist thing. it seems that i didnt get it. i got news from one lecturer that somebody else got it. but you know wats the most fustrating thing about it? let me tell you ALL about it. initially there were four of us, who went for the interview. out of the four, there were Allan Law, Sun Tian , Lee Soon Lee Sheng and me. allan was already the undisputed gold medallist. while sun tian was the undisputed silver. so it was obvious that either lee or me got the bronze, if there was such a catergory. according to the lecturer who told me the news, another guy got the bronze award.
i was super pissed right there and then, if the news that the lecturer had told me was true, as there hasnt been any official announcement or posting. imagine the angst. although from the start of poly i had wanted to obtain a certain recognition for my efforts, i had never thot this award would be possible. then came the interview invite. i was by then full of hopes that i can do my parents proud for once. all shattered because i was only invited to put up a show. ba~~~...i still haven got over it.
i am now hoping for at least an official announcement before i kick up a storm about anything. if i really didnt make it and lee also didnt make it, but a third party made it. i really hope they give a reasonable explanation. if the news that ALEX HO TAI TONG told me its false, at least for now i know the true color of another person. as he had told me the news around my SRG preparation days. wonder if he was all out to set me up. all these...WAIT.
so i guess current status of my life can be described under WAIT. i am not the particularly waiting person. i hope this phase of my life can pass soon.
i have also jus went to Gentings JUST. it was a super short trip. we left for Gentings at friday nite, reach the peak in the wee hours of saturday and left in sunday early afternoon. this trip was under the instigation of a particular fengshui person that mummy consulted. well, it worked to a hoilday, so i was more than happy about it. hahaha...
a word of advice for those goin there. please pack your own foodstuff. its not that theres a food shortage there. its jus that the price there are as good if not higher than the prices in singapore. go for the more international brands such as Mac or coffee bean. imagine 3 pairs of dough stick(you tiao) worth 6RM, i almost got the shock of my life. the worst part is that that is already the discounted rate. scary~~~. i guess too much singaporean visiting gentings could be a bad thing after all.
goin 6mths(since 21st oct 2005)
actually there is little to no point getting such high score. only except to get into favourite uni and favourite courses. hahaha...finally i have enlightened and seen through it. so now the question awaits, am i in uni yet? the answer is still pending. ba~~~ .... so far i have only sent my application to NTU. up till now, no answers. arggh, the wait is killing me. y did i apply to NTU only? erm...cos so far thats the only uni that have left a clear impression that they can let me direct into 2nd year of studies. arrghh...the pains of waiting, dun blame me, i am the maggi mee generation.
even if i get my letter of entry now...i have a whopping 3 months before i enter into uni, as classes start at around august. time to find a job to fill the 3mths.
oh...regarding the medallist thing. it seems that i didnt get it. i got news from one lecturer that somebody else got it. but you know wats the most fustrating thing about it? let me tell you ALL about it. initially there were four of us, who went for the interview. out of the four, there were Allan Law, Sun Tian , Lee Soon Lee Sheng and me. allan was already the undisputed gold medallist. while sun tian was the undisputed silver. so it was obvious that either lee or me got the bronze, if there was such a catergory. according to the lecturer who told me the news, another guy got the bronze award.
i was super pissed right there and then, if the news that the lecturer had told me was true, as there hasnt been any official announcement or posting. imagine the angst. although from the start of poly i had wanted to obtain a certain recognition for my efforts, i had never thot this award would be possible. then came the interview invite. i was by then full of hopes that i can do my parents proud for once. all shattered because i was only invited to put up a show. ba~~~...i still haven got over it.
i am now hoping for at least an official announcement before i kick up a storm about anything. if i really didnt make it and lee also didnt make it, but a third party made it. i really hope they give a reasonable explanation. if the news that ALEX HO TAI TONG told me its false, at least for now i know the true color of another person. as he had told me the news around my SRG preparation days. wonder if he was all out to set me up. all these...WAIT.
so i guess current status of my life can be described under WAIT. i am not the particularly waiting person. i hope this phase of my life can pass soon.
i have also jus went to Gentings JUST. it was a super short trip. we left for Gentings at friday nite, reach the peak in the wee hours of saturday and left in sunday early afternoon. this trip was under the instigation of a particular fengshui person that mummy consulted. well, it worked to a hoilday, so i was more than happy about it. hahaha...
a word of advice for those goin there. please pack your own foodstuff. its not that theres a food shortage there. its jus that the price there are as good if not higher than the prices in singapore. go for the more international brands such as Mac or coffee bean. imagine 3 pairs of dough stick(you tiao) worth 6RM, i almost got the shock of my life. the worst part is that that is already the discounted rate. scary~~~. i guess too much singaporean visiting gentings could be a bad thing after all.
goin 6mths(since 21st oct 2005)
Monday, March 06, 2006
the date...6 March 2006. event? nothing. hahaha...actually i finished my exams some time ago. had it on the 1st and 3rd of march. FWAH~! GRADUATION finally. now for the continuation of my plans to catch up to my fellow peers. so if i successfully enter into the direct 2nd year of NTU, i will be then lag my peers by one year. phew~
the primary and secondary march school holidays are comin. me? trying to embed myself into the pulse of the society and existence of adulthood, while still in my recent new relatiohship.
soon i will be required to go for an interview for the potential medallist. hahaha...the thing is i dun even know which one to aim for. bah!! it all seemed too pre-defined. when the gold and sliver placing are fixed. now i am only left to wonder if i can get the elusive 3rd placing. i call it the elusive, because i am not even sure theres a 3rd placing. saddeness looms. the only reason why i am still goin for the interview is purely for a few reasons
1) joyce's encouragement
*for those who doesnt know wat joyce means. SHEs THE NEW MISTRESS OF THIS BLOG
2) pride, hounor and glory for parents...IF i really get something
3) for myself? nah...
anyhow...hope i can prep something for tml's interview.
the NTU application shld return results soon...i hope. the predicted date of knowledge is at the end of march. hmmmm..long wait, and not to mention the starting of the new semster which happens only around August or earlier.
till then i guess a proper part time job would be good. not to mention a holiday to go with it. bah~~~ desperately need a holiday. the worst part to this holiday is not the lack of money, but the lack of companion. joyce cant make it to an overseas holiday(Genting, Malaysia) without her family taggin along too. hmmmm...then i guess it really boils down to lack of money....bah~~~!!!!!!
joyce's FUTURE-to-be 'JIE FU' has already booked me for a period in my holiday to do sales. hahaha...yea. the only thing that worries me is the realisation of that. seems that it has yet to confirm. anyhow, i really hope to get to work in the coffeeshop opposite my house. not that i am dying to be a a coffee-boy. i want to work in the Jap food stall in that coffeeshop. hehehe...then i can learn how to cook jap and earn my keep...:) please please keep the opening for me ....HOPES!!!!
in a relationship, you will learn the most about yourself. know why? hahaha...as it is difficult to solve a variable by itself. you can always try to solve it simultaneous with 2 variables... ...okok...lame. i found out that i am actually quite the physical contact guy. erm...not in the very sexual sense, but in the very kola bear sense. still dun get it? erm...nvmind. why am i explaining it to you anyway.
hmmmm...its been quite sometime since i last gave thanks to everything that surrounds me. lets hope i am still ok at it.
thanks for the fruitful and meaningful relationship that has happened. to joyce:"i am enjoyin every moment of us together. xie xie."
thanks for the bountiful wealth that has kept me afloat throughtout this few months. there has always been money and assistance, whenever i needed help. hahaha..thanks
thanks for the intelligence that served me faithfully through this 2 years course. as wat benny said "guy is prime at 23. becos u become most intelligent" o.0? then i am glad that i am still jus a few more months from being 23. hahaha...can use more of the intelligence before turning 24. :) thanks
thanks for the peace of mind. in a relationship there bound to be quarrels and arguments, i am thankful that peace of mind always return to clear my head and my heart. without it, i doubt i can pull through so many 'clashes' :P
thanks for the health that is still going good. hahaha...recently did a BMI calculation for myself. i discovered that i am actually 21.7. hahaha...from the same person who inspired me to do the BMI calculation, it seems that i am still in the acceptable weight catergory, for an asian. wahahahaha...
thanks for the friends that never forget. thanks for your companionship, your tolerance of me, your patience into our friendship and your time. i hope i can still remember every single one crystal clear by the time i get alzheimer's :)
bye
the primary and secondary march school holidays are comin. me? trying to embed myself into the pulse of the society and existence of adulthood, while still in my recent new relatiohship.
soon i will be required to go for an interview for the potential medallist. hahaha...the thing is i dun even know which one to aim for. bah!! it all seemed too pre-defined. when the gold and sliver placing are fixed. now i am only left to wonder if i can get the elusive 3rd placing. i call it the elusive, because i am not even sure theres a 3rd placing. saddeness looms. the only reason why i am still goin for the interview is purely for a few reasons
1) joyce's encouragement
*for those who doesnt know wat joyce means. SHEs THE NEW MISTRESS OF THIS BLOG
2) pride, hounor and glory for parents...IF i really get something
3) for myself? nah...
anyhow...hope i can prep something for tml's interview.
the NTU application shld return results soon...i hope. the predicted date of knowledge is at the end of march. hmmmm..long wait, and not to mention the starting of the new semster which happens only around August or earlier.
till then i guess a proper part time job would be good. not to mention a holiday to go with it. bah~~~ desperately need a holiday. the worst part to this holiday is not the lack of money, but the lack of companion. joyce cant make it to an overseas holiday(Genting, Malaysia) without her family taggin along too. hmmmm...then i guess it really boils down to lack of money....bah~~~!!!!!!
joyce's FUTURE-to-be 'JIE FU' has already booked me for a period in my holiday to do sales. hahaha...yea. the only thing that worries me is the realisation of that. seems that it has yet to confirm. anyhow, i really hope to get to work in the coffeeshop opposite my house. not that i am dying to be a a coffee-boy. i want to work in the Jap food stall in that coffeeshop. hehehe...then i can learn how to cook jap and earn my keep...:) please please keep the opening for me ....HOPES!!!!
in a relationship, you will learn the most about yourself. know why? hahaha...as it is difficult to solve a variable by itself. you can always try to solve it simultaneous with 2 variables... ...okok...lame. i found out that i am actually quite the physical contact guy. erm...not in the very sexual sense, but in the very kola bear sense. still dun get it? erm...nvmind. why am i explaining it to you anyway.
hmmmm...its been quite sometime since i last gave thanks to everything that surrounds me. lets hope i am still ok at it.
thanks for the fruitful and meaningful relationship that has happened. to joyce:"i am enjoyin every moment of us together. xie xie."
thanks for the bountiful wealth that has kept me afloat throughtout this few months. there has always been money and assistance, whenever i needed help. hahaha..thanks
thanks for the intelligence that served me faithfully through this 2 years course. as wat benny said "guy is prime at 23. becos u become most intelligent" o.0? then i am glad that i am still jus a few more months from being 23. hahaha...can use more of the intelligence before turning 24. :) thanks
thanks for the peace of mind. in a relationship there bound to be quarrels and arguments, i am thankful that peace of mind always return to clear my head and my heart. without it, i doubt i can pull through so many 'clashes' :P
thanks for the health that is still going good. hahaha...recently did a BMI calculation for myself. i discovered that i am actually 21.7. hahaha...from the same person who inspired me to do the BMI calculation, it seems that i am still in the acceptable weight catergory, for an asian. wahahahaha...
thanks for the friends that never forget. thanks for your companionship, your tolerance of me, your patience into our friendship and your time. i hope i can still remember every single one crystal clear by the time i get alzheimer's :)
bye