back here to say my piece.
over dinner i jus remembered something taught in Neuro-Linguistic Programming Inter-disciplinary module, which i am currently takin in Ngee Ann. the conscious mind will lead the sub-conscious mind. hence i have decided, to take charge. to once and for all stamp down and concentrate 200% on my studies and projects.
being a libra, it doesnt help in makin decision. there is the part of me that goes, WHAT IF. what if this huiling is the one? OR what if the one comes along and i am all engrossed in my studies and my life only? then i answer back, what if she doesnt? being pessimistic has its perks...:)
here comes the reason. i cannot possibly 'what if' every other single and available girl that comes along. that would be totally mistake, not to mention totally pathetic. mistake meaning, i have to live my life. i cant have these topics surround me all the time. once or twice...ok no prob. however, i cant just live in these topics, its not healthy. there are alot more things to do. things like er...cant think of any thing now, maybe later something will show. the POINT is, GET on with your life already.
life isnt all about girls. there is the POWER, not to mention WEALTH and FAME. so many things to purse and you choose girls. haiz. things will work out, eventually. EVENTUALITY(defined by princeton:a possible event or occurrence or result).
let not heart affairs bother thee. let thee rest in thy own daily chores and play. let i who hath too much time in fantasy land return. let not the fates play us out. steer thy life as thee fit and not let wild obscure thoughts run.
Sunday, July 31, 2005
yes...i am back. back here to blab about myself and my insignificant life. haha...just joking not to so pessimistic.
however, i do feel kinda of withdrew from the crowd. somehow, i feel that there is no more meaning in the crowd. when you have lost that face you look for in the crowd, i guess you will have that kinda of withdrawal too. i didnt lose anyone physically, if thats what you are wondering. humph...
life has been rather busy for me lately. projects deadlines draw ever so near, and i have planned for myself to pick up ever more things to do. wahahahaha...feels like i am trying to numb myself? oh well...maybe i am. numb from? who knows.
oh...one important thing to add. recently, i got to know this indonesian girl who is currently in beijing, i guess. i posted my interest as astrology and stated that i knew some knowledge of it. then poof...there she was, on MSN. her name is huiling, and she is a virgin(HOROSCOPE, no indication of sexual activity) of my age.
ever since then, she has been the only one so far that has so consistently converse with me, or at least i try to. till date, i can confidently say that she is the ONLY one who has so consistently tried to converse with me. everytime she is online, she is bound to drop a line or two. er...not to mention those kissing winks and heart-everywhere winks. i guess its obvious i am not so comfortable with that...because i feel like i am being woo-ed.
when i told mummy about it, she was (unable to describe that expression of hers). she said,"ok, wat. dun think so much, relax lar." anyway, she is the type who thinks that when a guy and girl sleep around, guys are always on the upper hand and girls at the losing end. so i guess what mummy wants is for me to enjoy being woo-ed, IF thats the case.
oh...well, cant say i talk alot to her. the most frequent words i use are like 'haha', 'k', 'tks' and 'got to go'. not very inclined to talk to her though, however, she seems to be able to confide in me though. weird huh? i think so too.
goin for dinner...maybe will write later.
however, i do feel kinda of withdrew from the crowd. somehow, i feel that there is no more meaning in the crowd. when you have lost that face you look for in the crowd, i guess you will have that kinda of withdrawal too. i didnt lose anyone physically, if thats what you are wondering. humph...
life has been rather busy for me lately. projects deadlines draw ever so near, and i have planned for myself to pick up ever more things to do. wahahahaha...feels like i am trying to numb myself? oh well...maybe i am. numb from? who knows.
oh...one important thing to add. recently, i got to know this indonesian girl who is currently in beijing, i guess. i posted my interest as astrology and stated that i knew some knowledge of it. then poof...there she was, on MSN. her name is huiling, and she is a virgin(HOROSCOPE, no indication of sexual activity) of my age.
ever since then, she has been the only one so far that has so consistently converse with me, or at least i try to. till date, i can confidently say that she is the ONLY one who has so consistently tried to converse with me. everytime she is online, she is bound to drop a line or two. er...not to mention those kissing winks and heart-everywhere winks. i guess its obvious i am not so comfortable with that...because i feel like i am being woo-ed.
when i told mummy about it, she was (unable to describe that expression of hers). she said,"ok, wat. dun think so much, relax lar." anyway, she is the type who thinks that when a guy and girl sleep around, guys are always on the upper hand and girls at the losing end. so i guess what mummy wants is for me to enjoy being woo-ed, IF thats the case.
oh...well, cant say i talk alot to her. the most frequent words i use are like 'haha', 'k', 'tks' and 'got to go'. not very inclined to talk to her though, however, she seems to be able to confide in me though. weird huh? i think so too.
goin for dinner...maybe will write later.
Saturday, July 30, 2005
its been a long time since i wrote. haha...obvious.
today happy day, well at least for this moment. i jus completed the printed circuit board(PCB) design for Zer0, so whats not to be happy about? :)
in acutal fact, this current design which i have just completed is the 2nd board. the first board is a 110mm by 83mm board. there are empty spaces here and there, everything was cleanly done up. cleanly because i had done half of the routing manually and half by the auto-route feature of Design Explorer Protel 99SE. yea!!! the manual parts that i did do is to try and make the routes more efficient. meaning, to the human eyes the routes dun look too stupid. well, humans do have the more complex mind. so that was that.
that board when through 2 person and suffered some feedback(choice of words:instead of failure; there is no failure in design). first off was from Mr Goh, the resident techincal support officer(TSO) at Alpha Centre, weichien and i were attached to him for technical support. meaning, he was our life bouy if we should meet up with any problems in the project. and oh...our team is PZ20(coded by alpha centre...hmph). anyhow, from first glance Mr Goh could tell it was a auto-route work. WOW! then he gave PLENTIFUL of places for me to watch out and improve.
next off, Mr Lim. he is our project supervisor. he seems kinda of FORGETTFUL and kinda of bias against the teams competiting in the Singapore Robotics Games(SRG). blah blah blah...its always his US sumo people(those teams who were attending the RoboGames 2006 Sumo robot catergory). anyhow, he gave more ideas and of course that would translate to more work and re-do. that eventually lead to the birth of the 2nd board...YEA!!!
the second board, is a 9 by 9cm board. totally manual routed. following certain ideals of routing provided by Mr Goh and QiJing(ex-classmate in JJC, who is now doing project in Alpha Centre too). tailoring to the requirements by Mr Lim as well. FINALLY, it has a birthdate. :)
everything is progressing well in Zer0. the body should be out soon. the PCB design once approved by Mr Lim , will be out in fabrication for 2 weeks. Anticipation!!!!
thinking back jus this morning, a certain 'thirst' has awaken. was it the packet of Lays potato chips that i had for dinner yesterday? nope...was it jus because i woke up from my drooling sleep? nope. i was something more, something deep.
the yearn for another companion has grew ever more. someone to share my thoughts, someone to share my happy moments, someone to share my time with, someone to be with and someone to hug with. that 'thirst' almost prevented me from the completion of my board. just another lonely soul in this big and crowded world. paradoxical? o.o
today is also my grandma's birthday. this is my maternal grandma. how old is she, you ask. seriously, i have no idea. what i do know is that she got married during the WWII and for that, her every day is already a blessing.
today is goin to be another crowded session of relatives. sigh... ... ...is there anyone there to quench my 'thirst'?
today happy day, well at least for this moment. i jus completed the printed circuit board(PCB) design for Zer0, so whats not to be happy about? :)
in acutal fact, this current design which i have just completed is the 2nd board. the first board is a 110mm by 83mm board. there are empty spaces here and there, everything was cleanly done up. cleanly because i had done half of the routing manually and half by the auto-route feature of Design Explorer Protel 99SE. yea!!! the manual parts that i did do is to try and make the routes more efficient. meaning, to the human eyes the routes dun look too stupid. well, humans do have the more complex mind. so that was that.
that board when through 2 person and suffered some feedback(choice of words:instead of failure; there is no failure in design). first off was from Mr Goh, the resident techincal support officer(TSO) at Alpha Centre, weichien and i were attached to him for technical support. meaning, he was our life bouy if we should meet up with any problems in the project. and oh...our team is PZ20(coded by alpha centre...hmph). anyhow, from first glance Mr Goh could tell it was a auto-route work. WOW! then he gave PLENTIFUL of places for me to watch out and improve.
next off, Mr Lim. he is our project supervisor. he seems kinda of FORGETTFUL and kinda of bias against the teams competiting in the Singapore Robotics Games(SRG). blah blah blah...its always his US sumo people(those teams who were attending the RoboGames 2006 Sumo robot catergory). anyhow, he gave more ideas and of course that would translate to more work and re-do. that eventually lead to the birth of the 2nd board...YEA!!!
the second board, is a 9 by 9cm board. totally manual routed. following certain ideals of routing provided by Mr Goh and QiJing(ex-classmate in JJC, who is now doing project in Alpha Centre too). tailoring to the requirements by Mr Lim as well. FINALLY, it has a birthdate. :)
everything is progressing well in Zer0. the body should be out soon. the PCB design once approved by Mr Lim , will be out in fabrication for 2 weeks. Anticipation!!!!
thinking back jus this morning, a certain 'thirst' has awaken. was it the packet of Lays potato chips that i had for dinner yesterday? nope...was it jus because i woke up from my drooling sleep? nope. i was something more, something deep.
the yearn for another companion has grew ever more. someone to share my thoughts, someone to share my happy moments, someone to share my time with, someone to be with and someone to hug with. that 'thirst' almost prevented me from the completion of my board. just another lonely soul in this big and crowded world. paradoxical? o.o
today is also my grandma's birthday. this is my maternal grandma. how old is she, you ask. seriously, i have no idea. what i do know is that she got married during the WWII and for that, her every day is already a blessing.
today is goin to be another crowded session of relatives. sigh... ... ...is there anyone there to quench my 'thirst'?