yes...i am back. back here to blab about myself and my insignificant life. haha...just joking not to so pessimistic.

however, i do feel kinda of withdrew from the crowd. somehow, i feel that there is no more meaning in the crowd. when you have lost that face you look for in the crowd, i guess you will have that kinda of withdrawal too. i didnt lose anyone physically, if thats what you are wondering. humph...

life has been rather busy for me lately. projects deadlines draw ever so near, and i have planned for myself to pick up ever more things to do. wahahahaha...feels like i am trying to numb myself? oh well...maybe i am. numb from? who knows.

oh...one important thing to add. recently, i got to know this indonesian girl who is currently in beijing, i guess. i posted my interest as astrology and stated that i knew some knowledge of it. then poof...there she was, on MSN. her name is huiling, and she is a virgin(HOROSCOPE, no indication of sexual activity) of my age.

ever since then, she has been the only one so far that has so consistently converse with me, or at least i try to. till date, i can confidently say that she is the ONLY one who has so consistently tried to converse with me. everytime she is online, she is bound to drop a line or two. er...not to mention those kissing winks and heart-everywhere winks. i guess its obvious i am not so comfortable with that...because i feel like i am being woo-ed.

when i told mummy about it, she was (unable to describe that expression of hers). she said,"ok, wat. dun think so much, relax lar." anyway, she is the type who thinks that when a guy and girl sleep around, guys are always on the upper hand and girls at the losing end. so i guess what mummy wants is for me to enjoy being woo-ed, IF thats the case.

oh...well, cant say i talk alot to her. the most frequent words i use are like 'haha', 'k', 'tks' and 'got to go'. not very inclined to talk to her though, however, she seems to be able to confide in me though. weird huh? i think so too.

goin for dinner...maybe will write later.