THE END...

now i know its not jus paranoria but from the start. it has always been that she cant accept a non-christian boyfriend. STUPID ALAN. how could he have been so blind. missed her hints. missed my parents naggin that it will never bear fruit. missed the advice benny was saying. missed all the teachings that all other christians were telling me. how could i have missed it all, and be so blind? ... ... ... ...

was my best still not good enough? was it my fault for even wishfully thinking that it will end like fairy tale? was i not caring and concerning enough for her? did i not play my role correctly as a boyfriend?

she told me we could cool off and continued after my trip or could break. wats the point of cooling off. since she started off by saying she couldnt accept a non-christian. all i wanted was for her to believe that it could end like a fairy tale.

isnt wat love is all abt? no? the powerful force which brings 2 person together to accomplish the impossible. to be in a relationship of whom there is another individual on the other line that is totally impossible.

STUPID ALAN........................stupid you.

WHO ASKED you to believe

believe are for wimps... for those true men are those for fight and grab for it. can i ever be one? or am i a forever wimp