yesterday...something really disturbing happened. disturbing meaning it disturbed my sleep ALOT. current location, blk 40at 0830+.
yesterday, met up with a fren, matthew, to talk shop about our business venture and 10 year plan. he was at the moment quite caught up in his half-hanging relationship. furthermore, that seems to be his only source of power to continue on whatever, he is doin now.
so out of concern, he asked about how was that aspect of my life comin along. that meaning the relationship aspect. it was like re-opening an old wound...
recently, or more accurately jus previous post, i did an analytical view and perspective on the topic LOVE. recieved quite a fair bit of thrashing though, and i wondered why. maybe i wasnt kinda of expecting that level of thrashing. cos i thot i had finally shone a light at the dark misty path at this field. oh well, so far no postive comments nor any indication that my theory draws parallel to real-life situation. sigh...
returning back home from the business venture, i felt tired and went to bed immediately. it shld be around midnite when i hit the sack. amazing, i woke up at around 0500+(didnt check the clock). then i tossed and turned on the bed for the next few waking hours. doing wat? thinking...matthew's topic had stayed in my mind long and hard till the point of disturbing my sleep.
imagine...i actually had the power, capability and destructiviness to ruin 2 friendship at a go. wow...and let all beware that when alan has power, he is all foolish, rash and stupid.
after numerous times of reading her blog previously, enlightenment came only at this morning 0715(i actually stood up to look at my alarm clock). i finally saw the light shining at the end of the tunnel. i finally could understand her perspective, understand why she was stumped. it all make sense now.
life was great before affairs of heart entered into alan's life. he was at minimum happy. he was a disturbed, deranged and disllusional but happy in his own right. that was the growing years. change came at around secondary school, when he and messenger of love crossed path. complexity drew.
usually, i will wake around 0730 and still laze around in bed. usually take the 0800 66 bus, reach school at around 0800++ near 0900 jus nice for my 0900 classes. now that i woke up at 0715, i was relatively earlier for my schedule. hmmmm...
jus then i noticed a habit, that i think i jus grew. i went and shave off my facial hair(not including my eyebrows) and trim my nostril hair. haha...the habit is actually not the trimming of my facial hairs. its actually something to do with cleaning. recently i feel that whenever, i feel bored and stressed out. i pick up something to clean. the first was my ledge at the windows. second was my Nalgene bottle. the third is now my face.
weird?...nah~ it think it may be working out to be a good habit. after all, who can say that there can be no stress in life. hehe...so when stress then clean something. end up with a more hygenic environment, less likely to get sick and less likely to be more stressed. :) weird but workable logic. haha...so i guess whenever, you see a really presentable alan. i guess it would mean a really rough patch for alan. so pray you see a really shagged out alan. hahaha...
still lingering on the relationship aspect of my life. haha...despite changin topic here and there... still...haiz!! maybe the next thing will be to keep out of this field for a while...
LiNG progress.....zero
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
today at NLP(neuro-linguistic programming;defined by google : Neuro-Linguistic Programming, a therapeutic process which enables you to break old patterns and generate unlimited potential using posture, breathing, specific exercises, awareness and communication skills.) lesson, finally saw the light of application. so i am kinda of dedicating this post to all those who are lost in the field of LOVE
HOW to know who is in LOVE and whose NOT?(the tell-tale signs)
i was initially quite troubled with the affairs of the heart. maybe its because of my discipline and training as an engineer. i am taught to read indicators and analysis from all possible angles and viewpoints. then when it comes to girls, there always seems to be a lack of indicators to base my analysis. not to mention the lack of assumption to predict the possible outcomes. then came NLP, the engineer's approach to the heart.
the key word is rapport(defined by google:Rapport is one of the most important features or characteristics of unconscious human interaction. It is commonality of perspective, being in "sync", being on the same wavelength as the person you are talking to.).
there are always people in your life that you are closer to and some that you jus dun think you would want to be in the same room with. this is due to the either the non-intention to rapport a certain sterotype of people or the inflexiblity of rapporting a different type of people from you.
the level of rapport is jus the first indicator that shld go off. during this rapport, the potential candiate would get himself/herself more and more interested in knowing more you. this would be the intention of rapport. this intention will very likely be picked up by observant or intutive people, or by warning from friends. without this intention of rapport, there will be no further need to read on. and like i have said, this is only the entry level. not everyone is a potential candiate YET.
stage two. this stage will consist a more advanced stage of rapporting, mirroring. there will be a few level of mirroring happening as well. there can be mirroring of tonality, type of words used, guesture and even posture. all these are still quite preliminary stages and nothing shld be confirmed. slowly as all these mirroring continues, it becomes difficult to distinct between which actions and mannerism actually is distinct to who.
stage 3. this stage will still be considered in the advanced stage of rapporting, matching. as from the previous stage, the potential candiate will try to mimic and mirror the type of words used. this is in a bid to learn and havin a matching response to attain the maximum 'sync' between any two person.
i will stop here, as i do believe that up till this stage, you will eventually hear the knock of your lover at the doorstep of your heart.
this is a guideline written for those who have difficulty finding their potential LOVERs in the midst. thus no elaboration is made at the 3rd stage. for sincere people who require more information, please contact me @ alan.koh@gmail.com.
till now...my counter for the number of girlfriends is still 0. :)
HOW to know who is in LOVE and whose NOT?(the tell-tale signs)
i was initially quite troubled with the affairs of the heart. maybe its because of my discipline and training as an engineer. i am taught to read indicators and analysis from all possible angles and viewpoints. then when it comes to girls, there always seems to be a lack of indicators to base my analysis. not to mention the lack of assumption to predict the possible outcomes. then came NLP, the engineer's approach to the heart.
the key word is rapport(defined by google:Rapport is one of the most important features or characteristics of unconscious human interaction. It is commonality of perspective, being in "sync", being on the same wavelength as the person you are talking to.).
there are always people in your life that you are closer to and some that you jus dun think you would want to be in the same room with. this is due to the either the non-intention to rapport a certain sterotype of people or the inflexiblity of rapporting a different type of people from you.
the level of rapport is jus the first indicator that shld go off. during this rapport, the potential candiate would get himself/herself more and more interested in knowing more you. this would be the intention of rapport. this intention will very likely be picked up by observant or intutive people, or by warning from friends. without this intention of rapport, there will be no further need to read on. and like i have said, this is only the entry level. not everyone is a potential candiate YET.
stage two. this stage will consist a more advanced stage of rapporting, mirroring. there will be a few level of mirroring happening as well. there can be mirroring of tonality, type of words used, guesture and even posture. all these are still quite preliminary stages and nothing shld be confirmed. slowly as all these mirroring continues, it becomes difficult to distinct between which actions and mannerism actually is distinct to who.
stage 3. this stage will still be considered in the advanced stage of rapporting, matching. as from the previous stage, the potential candiate will try to mimic and mirror the type of words used. this is in a bid to learn and havin a matching response to attain the maximum 'sync' between any two person.
i will stop here, as i do believe that up till this stage, you will eventually hear the knock of your lover at the doorstep of your heart.
this is a guideline written for those who have difficulty finding their potential LOVERs in the midst. thus no elaboration is made at the 3rd stage. for sincere people who require more information, please contact me @ alan.koh@gmail.com.
till now...my counter for the number of girlfriends is still 0. :)
yesterday...watched initial D movie plus got myself a new bag...YEA!!!!
initial D wasnt exactly up there in drift performance, cinematics and cast as compared to the anime series. the movie was also VERY VERY packed. there are altogether 4 stages(4 seasons) in the anime series. the movie, nicely packed all the 4 stages into a 2hr screentime. WOW!!! gotta give credits for the storyboard pple. THUMBS Up.
there were of course lots of parts that differ from the anime series. so many that i also lazy to point out. but i guess the change was for the increase entertainment value of the movie, so i guess you can call it a unique feature. the most disappointing change was Ryo's car. wasnt it suppose to be a mazda RX-7? Edison didnt pull it off as a takashi. not that i am trying to be mean, but its jus that he didnt have that height that i thot he might have. furthermore, he looked too boy-ish to play that cool level-headed leader and strategist of Project D.
oh jus to rebutt all those who remarked about jay's acting. i am not exactly a jay fan. jus appreciate all the lyrics in his songs, so in fact i am more of a fan of Fang Wen San(方文山). personally, i think jay did quite well.
firstly, takumi was pretty much expressionless. secondly, so was jay. thirdly, i think he protrayed the character really well. its like pro antique dealers, listening to those antique amatuer talk about antique. advice:please watch the anime series or at least read the comics(not so recommending it). jay could actually bring out the subtle feelings of takumi. i guess i was being again too observant at the movies again...:)
overall, that movie gives a rough intro into the initial D world. dun take everything you see on the big screen though. not all the parts are true to the anime series, some truncated and some edited. whats true? that they race every other epsiode without havin to worrying about their day jobs. nice fanatasy eh?
i went to westmall to catch initial D movie. not exactly a gathering that i had wished but thanks for showin up :) there were jiarong(guy). although the name jiarong sounds like a girl's name, he is far from being ger-ger. dreams of fast car, swirl around traffic, blasts wkrz music, partying all nites in Australia despite of 10 assignment in 3 days? O. K. movin along.
he jus came back from Australia for holidays. goin to grad at around 2008. translation:more of the good life at Australia till 2008. with SUPER cheap liquor, he is bascially gulping down VODKA. that is so UNFAIR...wats goin to happen to wholesome and healthy water!!?!?...ok maybe i am jus jealous. :p he joined us for dinner, as he is very much needed at his younger sister's birthday party.
then there were others who turned up. Derrick Oon(pronounced as wound) leslie benson and qun xiang. pathetic numbers if i do say. BUT, fun is not dependent on the number of pple...thank god.
leslie was goin watching another movie on the same day. movie marathon? nope. haha...(censored by -kaze.blogspot.com;reason : (none))hahaha....
kk...the LiNG progess report card.
LiNG shld be out in manufacturing at around 8 July. fabricating the PCB by July 15. if not, please give me all you got(and i mean thrasing not your money). oh...i think i forgot to mention that LiNG is actually a twin. because both the auto and r/c sumo competition might be held at the same time. as LiNG might had a prob doin a 'split', so we might be giving birth to 2.
hehe...one is for r/c(remote control). that child will be under custody of weichien. and the other child(automated) will be naturally under my custody. hahahaha...muhahahaha
recently, i have been havin certain irregular spasms of anger. hmmm...consulting the 5 elements, this anger fits might last a few months(summer season). the summer season, in element of fire. personally, i am in the day element of water, plentiful of metal covered in ground. presence of fire, and lacking wood. all the anger is 'buring' away all the wood(intelligence). haiz...anyhow...have to be more careful(this is a warning meant for all)
initial D wasnt exactly up there in drift performance, cinematics and cast as compared to the anime series. the movie was also VERY VERY packed. there are altogether 4 stages(4 seasons) in the anime series. the movie, nicely packed all the 4 stages into a 2hr screentime. WOW!!! gotta give credits for the storyboard pple. THUMBS Up.
there were of course lots of parts that differ from the anime series. so many that i also lazy to point out. but i guess the change was for the increase entertainment value of the movie, so i guess you can call it a unique feature. the most disappointing change was Ryo's car. wasnt it suppose to be a mazda RX-7? Edison didnt pull it off as a takashi. not that i am trying to be mean, but its jus that he didnt have that height that i thot he might have. furthermore, he looked too boy-ish to play that cool level-headed leader and strategist of Project D.
oh jus to rebutt all those who remarked about jay's acting. i am not exactly a jay fan. jus appreciate all the lyrics in his songs, so in fact i am more of a fan of Fang Wen San(方文山). personally, i think jay did quite well.
firstly, takumi was pretty much expressionless. secondly, so was jay. thirdly, i think he protrayed the character really well. its like pro antique dealers, listening to those antique amatuer talk about antique. advice:please watch the anime series or at least read the comics(not so recommending it). jay could actually bring out the subtle feelings of takumi. i guess i was being again too observant at the movies again...:)
overall, that movie gives a rough intro into the initial D world. dun take everything you see on the big screen though. not all the parts are true to the anime series, some truncated and some edited. whats true? that they race every other epsiode without havin to worrying about their day jobs. nice fanatasy eh?
i went to westmall to catch initial D movie. not exactly a gathering that i had wished but thanks for showin up :) there were jiarong(guy). although the name jiarong sounds like a girl's name, he is far from being ger-ger. dreams of fast car, swirl around traffic, blasts wkrz music, partying all nites in Australia despite of 10 assignment in 3 days? O. K. movin along.
he jus came back from Australia for holidays. goin to grad at around 2008. translation:more of the good life at Australia till 2008. with SUPER cheap liquor, he is bascially gulping down VODKA. that is so UNFAIR...wats goin to happen to wholesome and healthy water!!?!?...ok maybe i am jus jealous. :p he joined us for dinner, as he is very much needed at his younger sister's birthday party.
then there were others who turned up. Derrick Oon(pronounced as wound) leslie benson and qun xiang. pathetic numbers if i do say. BUT, fun is not dependent on the number of pple...thank god.
leslie was goin watching another movie on the same day. movie marathon? nope. haha...(censored by -kaze.blogspot.com;reason : (none))hahaha....
kk...the LiNG progess report card.
LiNG shld be out in manufacturing at around 8 July. fabricating the PCB by July 15. if not, please give me all you got(and i mean thrasing not your money). oh...i think i forgot to mention that LiNG is actually a twin. because both the auto and r/c sumo competition might be held at the same time. as LiNG might had a prob doin a 'split', so we might be giving birth to 2.
hehe...one is for r/c(remote control). that child will be under custody of weichien. and the other child(automated) will be naturally under my custody. hahahaha...muhahahaha
recently, i have been havin certain irregular spasms of anger. hmmm...consulting the 5 elements, this anger fits might last a few months(summer season). the summer season, in element of fire. personally, i am in the day element of water, plentiful of metal covered in ground. presence of fire, and lacking wood. all the anger is 'buring' away all the wood(intelligence). haiz...anyhow...have to be more careful(this is a warning meant for all)