dun ask me how or why i write...but i jus feel like writing...

although i cant proclaim that i have found the secret of life, but i can safely say that at least i know what i am born to do. to think, ponder, analyse and conclude.

ever since the MindQuest for Excellence module in Ngee Ann Poly 2005, i know my life has somehow changed. in MindQuest for Excellence module, Neuro-Linguistic Programming(NLP) was taught. in NLP, i learnt that the brain had 2 parts, the conscious and the sub-conscious. the more intriguing part was not that fact, however, it was that the conscious mind actually had to lead and guide the sub-conscious mind. reason?

the sub-conscious(subC) mind and the conscious(C) mind was made different. the subC was made more to multi task, work holistically, think in terms of intuition and store information. the C was however, more in tuned to think linearly or singularly(depending on different individual), analyse and place judgement.

all my life, i thought that it was my subC whom i should listen to. i was wrong. the subC cannot make judgement calls like the C can. the subC also has the inability to analyse any situation or problem. so in NLP, we were taught that the C shld be the master of our lives. and since C has a memory problem, therefore, it is imperative that we remember ourselves the directions or goals that we wish to head. i had no problems with all that information up till then. well not at least my subC started to think.

i realised that the key point i have been missing out is that i still dun understand myself. to fully understand myself i will have to make myself fully conscious of all my actions, behave and reactions. which also means that i will have to analyse my subC using my C. come to think of it, in my life till now, my C wasnt fully responsible for most of the actions, behaviour or reactions. it was my subC that was mostly responsible. most of my actions, behaviour and reactions were instinctive, something my subC was really good at.

for the benefit of those who are truly deeply lost in my thoughts, here is a simplified version. think of the brain as a computer. there are 2 parts to this computer, the conscious(C) and the sub-conscious(subC).

for example, at a subC level, the computer will draw electricity as would i draw breath. the computer at a subC level, will carry out all previously scheduled anti-virus checks, port checks and list goes on. drawing parallel, my body at a subC level, also does bacteria and viral checks, if such is found, my body reacts with either flu, fever, or antibodies.

for example, at a C level, the computer will react to whatever reactions it recieves from its users. liken to me, i will react to people once i am peeved or once i am ignored, or even when i am threatened.

so the point here that i am trying to make is that, i find it imperative to understand the programming of the subC of our brain. this is, i feel, the reason of life. the reason why humans keep reproducing children and the reason why humans record their knowledge.