today...now...end of week5 panel review number 1 and end of my lunch

feeling all draggy and tired. wonder wats the thing at work here. lost will be the more appropriate word for the moment.

last night something happened. weird thing again. last night as i was talking to a leslie, something he mentioned jus got my flares all buring. leslie was the supportive figure behind the meiling pursuit. hehe...so roughly i think it is quite obvious the direction of the following passage.

he told me that he was crashing serene's class yesterday. all of a sudden he apologise for not informin that meiling was coming down yesterday, because serene took his phone. i must admit i was thinking maybe a little too hard and anger in OT.

-- in my brain --

was kinda of angry...firstly, erm...pissed. not because of the gesture that leslie was goin to inform me. actually i didnt need the information but appreciate the thought behind the guesture. rather it was the idea, that they thot i needed very much the information.

hmmm...at this point, i guess better to illustrate my point
alan
leslie
serene

leslie : "give information to alan about meiling comin down"
alan : "appreciate the kind thot behind guesture but dun really NEED the information" AND didnt recieve anyt 'TIPOFF'
serene : "dun wanna give that information to alan" (for god knows reasons)
the above scenerio was the scene that was playing in my brain...

somehow in the brain representation of serene was not very appealing. rather like those in protective light of her fren from a potential slim-ball pest. and i think this is quite obvious the reason that i got pissed.

-- end of alan's brain reality --

-- ACTUAL FACT (the things that did really happen in real life) --

yesterday (23rd June 2005)
i was at alpha centre all day.
the only thing i knew was that leslie was comin down to crash serene's lect.
joyce still has IVP seeding to play at. tml panel review number 1.
now still doin last minute touch ups for presentation slides.
got wind that bryan lost to jonas from joyce, who went and peeped at the match.
Finished presentation at around 2000+.
phone NEVER(meaning:suggests the following event will not) rang nor had a single sms.
went to squash court(reason:to see to look, y i wanna go? because i wanna jus go c c look look...to see anyone in particular but jus to get whiff of bloody sweating ppl, can?!)
reach the courts, saw stephen, ryan and denise. sat down, chit chat, then left!!!
it was not till later at nite, while talkin to leslie that i know that meiling was even at NP watching the matches too!

-- end of reality bites --

was pretty flared up last nite. who wouldnt? got the impression that i was being thot of as a pest. left torrent opened to download bleach episode 37 while i sleep and cool off. leslie took care of the rest, i think.

done...