today...trying to immense myself totally into this sumo-robot design, calculations and tons of other details. trying to make sense of what i see on the Internet, ah Lim's advice and francis's(senior) experience. so how somewhere still feels kinda of laggy. REFORMAT. kinda of out of the question, but i will do what i usually do, a partial brain format.

"I hope we could be close frenz as wat we used to be... ..."

took about 1 1/2 months of staring and reading to understand the above. guess i shld really re-evaluate my comprehension abilities. wanna be frenz? SURE... wanna be wat we used to be? FINE...NO Prob. sure...not big deal. frens....FRIENDS. F-R-I-E-N-D...hmmm...no biggie.

i guess you can always be hopefully about alot of things. like cure for aids, like being associated to the words, beauty, dashing, handsome, etc.. you can also be hopefully for the grand prize of the next lucky draw, or even be hopefully about forever youthfulness. however, i guess learning of letting go is part of growing up. hmmm...hopes like being associated to handsome HAVE to let go. much less hope of never understanding the meaning of the above sentence.

maxferes : "you gave a clear question...and she returned a clear answer. so what you want?"

My 'MacDonald' theory about love and fate

at one point in life your bound to feel the urge to step into a fastfood resturant. as you step in, you only notice the lady over the other side of the counter. you look at her, then at her name tag. it reads "Fate Destiny".

Fate Destiny : "Good morning, which set meal would you like?"

you : "what set meals do you have?"

Fate Destiny : "We have all variations of set meals. which set meal would you like?"

then you take a step back to ponder over which set meal you prefer. then you notice a referrence book by the side and started to look at some of the set meals introduced. you dont seem like the picky nor choosy type and every set seems to suit. customer A walks in.

Fate Destiny : "Hi, which set meal would you like?"

customer A : "I will take the set meal 1. change drink to dark coffee."

Fate Destiny : "No problem. coming right up. that will be a lifetime of pain, happiness, sorrow, weal and woe."

customer A : "hmmm...but i only have 3 months with me."

Fate Destiny : "How about another set?"

customer A : "for jus 3 months?"

Fate Destiny : "yup! heres the set that will cost 3 months. set 49."

customer A : "sure...i will take this!"

then you look to yourself and started to search. to search for the time that you brought to get the meal. then you found a lifetime. you looked very pleased. however, you just hope to get the most quality meal that you can get. so you continue to search for that meal in the referrence book, thinking that the price of that quality meal shld be around a lifetime. although you keep searching, you are only doing comparsion and still do not have any idea of what quality meal is. another customer walks in.

Fate Destiny : "Hi, which set meal would you like?"

customer B : "i will have set 13 and i want some honey sauce to go with it."

Fate Destiny : "No problem. coming right up. that will be a lifetime of pain, happiness, sorrow, weal and woe."

customer B : "here you go."

after a while of waiting, customer B is getting quite impatient.

customer B : "where is my set meal?"

Fate Destiny : "still cooking it. it will take a while. please kindly give it another wait." jus as she finished her sentence, another customer arrives.

Fate Destiny : "Hi, which set meal would you like?"

customer C : "i want set 49."

Fate Destiny : "i am sorry. currently, we are not serving set 49 as we have run of ingredients just now. how about another set?"

customer C : "er...then i will get set...80"

Fate Destiny : "No problem. coming right up. that will be just one night."

customer C : "here you go."

as customer C leaves the counter, customer B still stands there waiting for set 13. in a short while another customer steps in.

Fate Destiny : "Hi, which set meal would you like?"

customer D : "i would like to get set 33 and some Thai chilli oils."

Fate Destiny : "No problem. coming right up. that will be a lifetime of pain, happiness, sorrow, weal and woe."

customer D : "here you go."

Fate Destiny : "finally, set 13 is done and here you go. here is also the honey sauce you requested."

after all the comotion at the counter, you found yourself more attracted to the comotion rather than to the search. then you really feel the hunger for a set. then you try all sorts of method to think through what meal actually catches your fancy and which meal you like. jus then, the previous customer came back.

Fate Destiny : "YES? can i help you in any way?"

customer D : "i want to change another meal."

Fate Destiny : "Sorry, but i cannot give you a full refund. however, i will refund of whats left of it. it will be about 10 years 3 months 15 days 4 hours 20 minutes and 8 seconds."

customer D : "then i want set 66 with some mints"

Fate Destiny : "No problem. coming right up. that will be the rest of time that you have left."

while you tilt your head over to look at the counter comotion, you notice a set meal on the display behind the counter. feeling all excited, you rush over to the lady at the counter to order your meal.

you : "Can i have the set 430?"

suddenly, you feel very ignored and alone. feeling unrelentless, you tried a few more times. however, the lady at the counter just ignores your orders. fustrated, you start to think.

you : must i meet certain rules and regulation to order a meal? am i missing a password that all the previous customers know?

or maybe like the meal, not all customers have the power of choice in selection of set meal?

** end of theory **

i suddenly feel very much to continue to express myself ...but hey look at the time 1222AM. nitez.