current geographical location? at school...more specifically at alpha centre should be concentrating hard on Zer0. why am i here blogging? hmmm...

yesterday, jus had a talk with mr lim. erm...actually, he had a talk with us. he sounded very disappointed. meaning to say, he will still pass us, but with that sense of hmmmm...disappointment? it seems that being in the sumo team has its own reputation to maintain. even though there is no obvious recognition in the winner of this competition, we are still pretty much sought after.

well the image of being in the sumo team pressures. the pressure of keepin the team-mate in pace also pressures. not to mention the pressure of recent troubles pressures.

haha...finally into main topic....:) erm...how to begin?

recently, i did mention that i was growing kinda of close to a particular someone? well...that is also the problem. as this kinda of getting close part happens. it always seems to get in the way somehow. engineer's term...to be close but not too close. whenever, i get too close to someone, it always seems that i show too much care and attention. nvmind....

so being also peeved about certain things that she done. i chose to withdraw from her. not sure whether it is a wise move, but at least i can stop watching her every move so much and stop getting so peeved.

hmmm...kinda of notice that i am actually not very good at portraying my feelings and emotions very clearly or even in detail. hmmm...got to work on that.

this time round, tried to hang around the girls that are already within my vicinity. then i discover an alarming fact, either that or i am too into my own inferiority complex. that i am portraying too much of a big brother image. hmm...well, i guess thats wat i do best. thinking back, i have never been much of a big brother to anyone, how can i possibly portray such an image?

anyhow...in a very troubled state of mind. trying to maintain the straight path. to graduate go to NTU, eventually take off in the biz with vincent and matthew. hmmm...is it always too much to ask to quickly find the one then get on with the rest of our life together...happily ever after?

or at least, minimally get someone to share joy, laughter, woes and pain together?

jus realised that i sound very pathetically desperate and...pathetic!!!

hmmm.....................................................................back to Zer0

now in the midst of contstuction and programming concepts.