wahaha...today, jus finished my exam. my one and only exam! in this semster at least. actually, the before and after exams didnt differ much, in terms of excitement level, in terms of panick-ness, in terms of anticipation and etc. so i guess i have pretty much got used to the examination stress that all these students are coin-ing. or maybe i am jus too cocky and confident, wahahahaha...

anyhow...made some progress on the emotional level. actually i am still confused on whether it is known as progress. oh well, jus take it that i made some headway. headway in wat sense? hrm...in a sense that not everyone you can communicate well with are potential soulmates. one obvious clue is that he/she might actually already have good communication skills with others. you are jus that one person within a group of people that he/she is communicating with. suddenly felt very tiny and insignificant? haha...no need for that. cause you jus have to remember, that person is also jus another person in your large network of people that you communicate with. whahaah...revenge is sweet~~

soon my birthday will be upon me again. wishes for the upcomin birthday? hmmm...like usually hopefully can find a soulmate to be with till the end of our biological years. why do people have wishes? mainly its due to the fact that some of the things in life are too hard to achieve, hence the last resort, wishes. since its so hard to achieve, by the law of nature, you will NOT get it almost certainly. however, if you got no wish AT ALL. it doesnt mean that you get everything that you want. its jus that you are plain unmotivated, no ambition, no goal and jus wasting your life away. to even get a 'WANT' in your life.

recently, a sense of withdrawal came upon me as well. withdrawal from crowd. or at least from certain groups of people. not that i have anything against them or that anything happened. it jus happened. hmmmm...puzzled.

another thing i found out is that this is actually the lunar eight month. the most 'metal' month throughout the whole year. hmmm...this doesnt spell good. cos my ba zi must avoid the 'metal'. hmmmm...