i thot today would be as normal and as boring as any other day. hehe, guess no one really know how the future is goin to turn out.

morning, jus before the lessons, i met ven, aka 'mei mei'. like me she is a libra too. a very confused and indecisive libra too. didnt meet up and talk to her for quite a long time already. jus glad that she is still so ever-bubbly. thanks ven, guess that mornin talk did kinda bring a good start to my day. : )

later on, the usual came on stage. school followed by home. although i ended school early, jus didnt felt like studying. even though i have AEM test this comin thursday. jus totally wasted my day away idling. till when my uncle visited, he was my mother's elder brother.

he always had kinda of prob with alcohol, you can say he's a alcoholic. however, that jus wont be totally true. he doesnt jus live on alcohol, he's jus a very lonely soul who tries to seek comfort in alcohol. cant blame him for lookin in the wrong direction, people do make mistakes. he had been drinking before he came over, and when he drinks there's no one else in the world he gives a damn. Well, the good thing is he still responses to my maternal grandmother, aka his mother, and he is not violently inclined. the best thing is that he speaks off his mind. in this dog eat dog world, speaking off your mind could jus be the best treasure anyone can find in this modern jungle. well the best this nephew could do was to sit and listen attentively, being rude and abnoxious was jus not in my set of genes. he started to drink since 14, and he's like minimally 50+++.

jus then he decided to give a call to his mother, for reasons that only he can fathom. both of us were then summoned to her house. hmmm...guess grandmother wants to give a damage control, because seriously no one can predict wat my drunked uncle might do. although it might be nothing seriously drastic, but guess grandmother jus wants to keep a close eye.

ok...finally after long and tedious foreplay here comes the main highlight of this post.

my cousin(the eldest son of that uncle) was living with my grandmother. he jus got promoted to being a father this few days. so naturally, when i was over i SIMPLY HAD TO pay a visit to my new niece. however, i also have this thing about babies.

its not like i hate them, but i prefer then to be at least 1 and above. why? their fragility totally freaks me out, even their cries can set me into a state of panick(which does not always happen, even if i see a live spark in front of me). so i kept my distance and admired that cute little creation. haha...yar all those tingly feeling and that peaceful feeling.

all of a sudden, the alarm was raised. DIAPER CHANGE. oh yea...wat else...SHIT. first sight of baby shit LIVE, upclose(still at quite a distance) and personally STUNNED. the shit was a green brown mixture. upon confirmation, its totally expected. upon further curiosity, babies actually would clear black bowels before clearing the green-brown mix. well, the resident baby experts(my grandmother and mother) have actually no idea abt it. anyhow, stayed through the whole diaper change and cleaning arse rountine. the memory of the shit comin out of her arse is still vivid. then it jus occurs to me, its one thing to shit your shit and another to watch someone shit their shit. (sick)

the usually computer freak cum IT fanatic cousin of mine, now permanently resides not at the desk of his super-mod computer, but at the side of his princess. i guess its the cobwebs for the computer of his. you can actually tell, by the long empty stares into his daughter. haha...i guess this is where fatherly love is always mysterious and yet equally great as motherly love. hmmm...guess its the best time to ask him to give up his computer to me....(grin)