now...in front of my computer staring blankly.

suddenly, nothing inside brain.

mummy jus know was inquiring into my future exams and holidays. when i told her the last and final exam was in sept, she totally freaked.

"SO soon you graduating?" mummy ASTONISHED.

guess that she was kinda of expecting me go for the long service award in Ngee Ann Poly. well guess what, no mummy, i am not going for that award. i am trying to get my diploma asap, no time to lose.

btw, did i address the issue how weird my mummy behaves? i guess i got most of my genes from her. hehe...

there was this one time where i got a GPA of 3.963(highest possible of 4). being the eage-to-please-and-impress-mummy kinda of guy, i told her the good news straight. well, it turns out REALLY annoying.

"You didnt get 4?" mummy again ASTONISHED.

although mummy hasnt been one of those mums whose always on their sons back prancing around in hopes of good grades, life is still tough. she was always on my back prancing to keep me afloat and not to fail. it was a straight downward path from 90+ marks in primary 1. she even demostrated that if i continue the graph, i would still pass my primary 5 but fail primary 6. hehe...

she is always the grade booper also. whenever, i score well for test, it will be near hard to impress her, even if i would be the only one that pass in the class(rare to near extinct chances).

"why compare yourself to those who did worst than you? why dun compare to those who did better than you?" mummy in an defensive tone.

trust me, it was never in her motive to see her dearly beloved son in the top ranks(even though it would defintely be a really beautiful appraisal as a mummy). she jus wanted her son to be normal, no pressure and live out his potential. that brings us to the next topic. the mental abacus classes she signed up for me while at tender childhood.

the class was real interesting AT THE BEGINNING. what class isnt interesting at the beginning? the hard part was keeping up as the level rose. did it improve my mental calculation abilities? well, those who know me knows best. hehe. the more important question was why did i stick with it? NO idea. i jus showed up for class all the way till i was very much near the top of the ranks(3rd highest ranks). plentiful of certs which illustrated my participation at certain prestigious events(mental calculation examination). the venue was cool, it was at erm...some ballroom somewhere downtown.

anyhow, managed to convince my mummy to let me quit. my brother, took the same class as me, but he was more devious. he failed a few test, proved his incompetence and incapabilities. mummy had no choice but to withdraw him. GREAT! it actually took me more pains to fail than to pass. arghh!!!

then again, mummy didnt gave me much stress nor pressure, was only there to nag and keep me afloat in the education system. AND i am proud to say that she has done excellent job. thanks mummy(salute).

she is always on the lookout for my welfare. whenever, near exam periods, i will get special brew of chinese medical concotions. not forgetting the all important indgredient, the essence of chicken. on the usual days, she will keep her eyes peeled for the next available, cheap and good tuition.

tuition was the only pastime in my childhood years. the rest of the childhood years are either spent in front of the TV or at the playgrounds near the tuition. day in day out, it has always been awakening, school, home, tuition, home and sleep. do i resent her for my hectic lifestyle? ....truthfully, there was this time at a particular moment in my life where i did. i resented myself for going to so many tuition. then again, resentment didnt get me this far in life.