another inspiration day jus happened.

maybe you have noticed. my recent post have little or never touch on the topic of the upcomin Battle Royale. jus goes to show how much my attention has been re-focused.

today, i had an AEM(advanced Engineering Mathematics) test, although its not part of the core module that i had to take, i still felt the responsiblities towards it. thus explaining for my rude and timely awakening. i had completed the paper in my own personal second worst attempt ever. i have been too FULL of myself. suddenly i felt the weight of my complacency in the every number and symbol that i drew from my pen. i was in a total state of ... ...

i would punish myself for the inability to take myself into hand. i would mourn at the regrets and spend the next century crying over spilled milk. HOWEVER, none would help or salvage the situation. thus i have decided to visualise my thoughts here.

i have totally nelgected my studies, but thats not the point nor crux. the crux was, wat i have nelgected it for? the answer stared right in my face, nothing. painful memories of the past suddenly re-surfaces to haunt the living. exact same thing happened in my ex-JC life. i totally wasted my time on NOTHING. I CANNOT LET THAT HISTORY REPEAT ITSELF, even at dear cost.

if theres one thing i learnt from my SMC(system modelling and controls) teacher, Mr Cheah Choo Leah, it would be the model for closed loop system. i feel that i am very poorly designed system. highly underdamped, low speed of response, attenuating feedback gain and low input impedance at the voltage follower. most important of all, i am using an Derivative control, one which amplifies all frequency noise.

reason for marriage? the union of 2 person who can be controller for each another. while the husband will feedback to the wife on himself. the wife then will systematically adjust her attitude towards him. the wife will also do vice versa, having the husband this time as the controller. secret to a happy marriage? maybe, maybe not. definitely a very difficult system for me to model on now.